Sanasai！你是我的母土 (Sanasai! You are My Motherland) 台英文 (累世之靶第十七章)

[Catherine Yen]

這是由詩人張德本書寫2516行長詩「累世之靶」中的第十七章, 由顏雪花(Catherine Yen)翻譯成英文, 此書以台英文出版。

 

Sanasai！你是我的母土

Sanasai！神話

猶原是佇遠到毋知外久遠飄流的海洋中

舊石器時代八仙洞 小馬 鵝鑾鼻  龍坑 

左鎮  伯公壠  月湖  網形文化

新石器時代大坑 麒麟 卑南 響林 鳳鼻頭

大湖 營埔 植物園 土地公山 圓山文化

金屬器時代靜浦 龜山 蔦松 大邱園 番子園 十三行遺址

攏足久久久遠遠遠老老老

永遠袂睏醒的少年仔的古老

Taljouwan！大員雖然四百年前有較近

但是嘛只賰一絲仔佇新港文書頂懸

 

Siraiya西拉雅            

就算你一直咧睏

我嘛設法闖入去你的夢境

就算你一直無佇我身邊

但是你猶原佇我的鏡中拈花

 

現實的帝國

必有非管轄之地

我的手指準備探摸你歷史的花蕊

放蕩陽根撐破鏡中的形影也不管一切

永久佇你的詩句中

脹大飽滿的意象

毋免阻擋我搓揉旋搖

我會共款叫你Siraiya西拉雅的名拈花

露水攏無驚惶

柚子花清香

迎接每一亇夜深的暗暝

荷花池滿溢

 

精血的源頭

Siraiya西拉雅

你是聖母

踦立的衫裾已經澹濕

詩是狂喜交歡的夜鶯

佇琉璃色早起的天空頂展開讀

星光透暝完成的詩篇

 

被捕的是現實

毋管時空的追緝

夢是帝國非管轄之地

咱敢通閣繼續流亡？

 

近在眼前

即是久遠的遺產

 

咱莫閣再予人出賣啊！

永遠莫閣再予人出賣啊！

祖先埋骨的所在即是

子孫生湠的所在

 

少年台灣！

一尾勇敢的海翁

民主自由泅向太平洋

勇敢嗆聲叫台灣

自由的海翁

世界的台灣！

 

原來今馬的台灣就是咱走揣真久的Sanasai！

阿立祖閣佇遮

Siraiya閣佇遮

山的堅持閣佇遮

海的活力閣佇遮

天的曠闊閣佇遮

地的厚實閣佇遮

人的喘氣閣佇遮

累世的Sanasai！咱民族的美夢就是佇遮

 

你是我的母土

每一擺離開後

你攏等待我擱再轉來

行佇曲折的海岸

你用懸音位海湧中呼喊我

若無母祖的島嶼

飄浪佇歷史無邊海洋的船

欲去佗位走揣偎岸的港口

 

睏佇異鄉的眠夢中

你常在輕聲搖醒我的鄉愁

在詩的引領下會當匿藏佇

你每一擺歷史的快門中

 

古老的情念

匿藏在統治者相機伸勼的暗室裡

佇每一擺殖民者的觀景取鏡之間

佮你眸眼相望

 

你是我的母土

踦佇高山的部落

用白雲佮綠草攬抱我

踦佇溪邊的鄉村

用流水佮岩石攬抱我

驚我跋倒  日夜an-an攬抱我

踦佇港口的都市

用波浪佮海鳥輕輕攬抱我

驚我驚惶  日夜an-an攬抱我

 

人人攏佇久長的前進中

等候歸程走揣歸宿

想欲停留又閣欲重新出發！

期待公義解放歷史的囚徒

攬抱漸老的自由

 

自從知影世上有你的彼刻

我所有的奮鬥攏懷抱你的榮耀

過去的拋荒生湠未來意義的紀元

 

你體內的我

永遠連結咱

我深深喘氣佇妳的攬抱中

就算死亡永遠嘛佇妳的攬抱中

閣再出世

 

你是我的母土

我佇你歷史的夢中醒來

旅程的風景

已經有身

思念的內海

波湧日月的光耀

位這亇島嶼

湧向世界的海洋

………………

 

XVII. Sanasai! You are My Motherland

 

Sanasai! A Myth

Still in a drifting ocean beyond a faraway place

Paleolithic Eight divines Cave(1), Siao Ma Cave(2), Err Ruan Bi, Lung Valley

Sites(3), Tso Chen, Moon Lake, Wang Hsing Culture(4), Neolithic Da Keng (5),

Chi Lin(6), Pei Nan Culture Sites(7), Sound Forest Sites(8), Feng Pi Tou(9),

Ta Hu(10), Yin Pu(11), Botanical Garden(12), Mt.God of Land(13), Yuan Shan

Culture, Iron Age Ching Pu(14), Kuei Shan(15), Niao Song(16), Da Chiu

Yuan(17), Fan Tse Yuan(18), Shih San Hang Sites(19)

Are far-off and very long ago

Forever the unawakened ancient of youth

Taljouwan! Though quite near the four hundred years

Only few remained in Sin Kan papers

 

Siraiya!

Whereas you fall asleep all along

I’ll do my best to intrude in your dreams

Whereas you can’t be by my side

You still grip the flower in my mirror

 

There is a non-jurisdictional area of

A realistic empire

My finger prepared to touch your stamen of the history              

Debauching the penis propped the vision in the mirror and despite all

Persistent in your verses

Image the swell and full

Blocking me not the rub and twist

I will call your name Siraiya still with a flower gripping

The dew with no trepidation

Fragrant the pomelo flower                                 

Greeting the darkness of every gloomy night

Overflowing the lotus pond

 

The source of semen and blood

Siraiya !

You are Madonna

Wet the standing dress tail

Poetry is the nightingale of ecstatic intercourse

Spreading in the translucent morning sky

Reading the poems accomplished overnight by star lights

 

Being arrested is a reality

No matter of the chase of space and time

Dream is a non-jurisdictional area of empire

Shall we continue the exile?

 

Near the eyes

Is a far off legacy

 

Don’t be betrayed again!

Never been betrayed forever!

The place embedding the ancestors is

The place spreading the descendants

 

The young Taiwan!

A brave whale in the ocean

Swimming to the Pacific the democracy and freedom

Shouting out Taiwan courageously  

The free whale

The world’s Taiwan!                                       

 

The current Taiwan is the original Sanasai that we found for long

Alid Ancestor is still here

Siraiya is still here

Persistent the mountain is still here

Vigorous the sea is still here

Spacious the sky is still here

Solid the land is still here                                 

Breath of the people is still here

Sanasai of successive generations,

Beautiful the national dream is here

 

You are my mother land

Every time I left

You wait for my returning again

Walking along the winding coast

You called me in treble voice through the waves

An island without a mother land

A wandering ship in a historical boundless ocean

Where to find an anchoring harbor

 

Sleeping in a foreign land

You slightly waken my nostalgia over and over again

Leading by the poetry to hide

In every snapshot of your history

 

The old sentiment

Concealed in a zoom shot of the ruler's camera at the dark room

In each lens of viewing by the colonists

A gaze across your eyes

 

You are my mother land

A tribe standing in the high mountain

Embracing me by white clouds and green grass

A village aside the stream

Hugging me by brooks and rocks

Afraid of my stumbling, hug me tight day and night

A suburb along the harbor

Holding me softly by seabirds and spray

Afraid of my trepidation, hold me tight day and night                 

Everyone is in his long term advance

Waiting for the return and finding the final settlement

Hope to stay but also to set forth

Expecting the justice to liberate the historical prisoner

Embracing the freedom being aged

 

Since the moment I knew you in the world

All my endeavors embrace your glory

The past desolation sprouts the future era of significance

 

That I inside you

Permanent the link

To breathe deeply in your embrace

Even dead is still in your embrace

Breeding again

 

You are my mother land

Awoke from your historical dream

The scenic journey

Is pregnant

The inland sea of yearning

Surged the glory of sun and moon

From this island

Floating to the world ocean………….. 

 

                                                     translated by Catherine Yen